I'm very sorry to hear this, Soul Stream. I recommend that you keep in mind that you are not alone in your suffering. Our culture presents to the public people who seem to have it all in life. They never seem to suffer. So when your life goes from bad to worse, it seems like you are the only person who is suffering.
But in fact there are many people suffering, and probably most don't have an effective way to deal with their problems. St. Alphonsus Liguori wrote that it is better to suffer one hundred years on earth than one hour in Purgatory. I keep telling myself that!