@ Gheorghe:
I get it, what you say here resonates with me: "Nowadays I rarely listen to "straight ahead jazz" because my moods and spirits go more into other stuff in "so called jazz", mostly in awareness of geniusses like Albert Ayler, Pharoah Sanders, and my beloved Sun Ra. Almost all music I have in my head, all the sounds I hear, all the feelings come from that directions, period."
Awesome.