Here's a thought - the second side of Heavy Heart is some of the most gut-wrenching music Carla's ever put forth. There was a lot of diversionary press about that one being an album about "romantic love", but I'm calling bullshit on that one. I have no idea how here and Mike Mantler's marriage evolved over the years, but here's the album from when it was ending once and for all. The first side is nice and "bright" (and is complemented by the pretty droll commentary on The Carla Bley Audio), but that second side, with "Ending It", "Starting Again", and finally "Heavy Heart"...listen to that by itself, put it in the context of the dissolution of a 20 or so marriage/business partnership, and it becomes some pretty damn intense music.
What threw this into focus for me was reading in Karen Mantler's online autobiography that there was a time when she was talking to her father and he was so depressed that he was either going to quit music altogether or commit suicide. Hardly a happy place. And Carla, I get the feeling,, wanted happiness in her life so the darkness had no chance of winning over the light. And so they parted. Like the lead cut says, "Light or Dark"...it's not a question, it's a choice that has to be made.
I'm nowadays prone to chuckle at how many people equate Carla Bley with being somehow light or un-serious in some fashion. She's a very serious person who, it seems to me, play her cards very close to the vest. But listen to those three songs (especially "Ending It", where Gary Valente speaks the truth about the pain involved in making tough decisions), in context, and tell me that's not some deeply personal music of, yes, deeply personal pain. Although at the end, she brings it back to the surface. But by then...the truth has been let out.