Thinking about truly individual, distinct jazz players who have both a unique sound and a fresh concept (or two, or three. . .)
For example, I'm thinking of how distinctly individual Bill Evans, Charlie Parker, Thelonious Monk, and Lester Young were. Just four examples. It's amazing to "realize" oneself this way. I don't have it in me, though there was a time (not now) I wished I did.